Wednesday, January 27, 2010

DIY dry cleaning: the green way

i find running errands in the netherlands intimidating. i can get by with my dutch but i am still consumed with anxiety. it's a familiar feeling that i have received in the united states. i finally finished off the kelly-green woollen shell from the beloved vintage coat. i needed to clean it. how many years has it marinated in the fine dust of greyed living?

going into a dutch dry cleaning and ask to clean this sad green shell? i've never even gone to a dry cleaners before and i wouldn't even know where to begin. communicating in a different language is intimidating to me on all levels.

the internet to the rescue! chemicals used in these dry cleaning places are "harmful to the environment" anyway. some flour and bran in the oven, spread it on the coat, wrap it in a towel and leave it for 3 days. here's to hoping & doing.

i abandoned my daily brunch routine of consuming pasta upon awakening. today i had a bowl of yogurt and muesli and a slice of hagelslag. lekker hoor!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

dutch unemployment 2010

called randstand zorg hoping to discuss the possibility of me doing some vaccination research. the projects ends this month. no other possibilities until i am "inburgered"/fluent in dutch. klootzak.

golden sun today and i ventured to the canal because my ISO 160 film in my holga likes this kind of light. everything looked ugly and washed-out now that the snow is gone. the canal couldn't save tilburg's (lack-of) beauty. back home i go.

i'm starting to accept that during this phase - it's impossible for me to achieve anything.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

when i'm not listening to the music...


georgian sludge-turned-boring-melodic-metal, baroness, played at the 013 last night. this band, hailing from the blue ridge mountains of my childhood, who i've seen in NC and VA, playing for a dutch audience.

i was already disappointed by the newest album when we rode towards berlin. steffan already had a place on the guest list as he was expecting me to be running around vienna rather than tilburg. we managed to get a free ticket while in line so we stood there in our free places bored and drinking our free beers.

the 1st time in richmond, i remember the topless butchies being carried over the teeming crusties. and in the nightlight in carrboro, NC, only being able to see anything because i stood on the couches by the books. they were large-statured, long-haired valkyrie-cowboy gods. i saw the swamp monster slowly rising out of the sulfurous silt of Montezuma's Revenge. green eyes glowing and scanning those in attendance. i understand this new artistic direction though i don't necessarily like it. they are good performers with clean, technical skill. they wanted more layers and more complexity so they ditched the sludged doom. i really think they could have taken the whole sludge-doom thing to a whole new level and make that more complex. but they didn't.

present baroness no longer produces horror stories. the intersections of geography, macrocultural attitudes, the ease of an identity purchased - the audience enraptured me. they bore a lot of the cultural symbols i found familiar. the red-and-black checked shirts donned by skater boys (@ least they present themselves in that way to me) with close-cropped hair and the ladies with flowered coiffures doing the rockabilly thing, etc.

maybe they were bored, too, but everyone remained crowded in the concert hall, politely quiet throughout the entirety of the show and politely clapping at the end of each song. some people bobbed their heads and throw up their hands to pose some symbol or another but they all stayed within their small circle of show-personal-space. no pushing. no excitement. no emotion at all. the front row was reserved for the professional photographers with their fancy equipment and not for the enthusiasts - my main WTF. the high stage became higher. preventing any sort of dynamic relationship between the band and the audience. why is this okay?

i miss DIY.

Monday, January 18, 2010

seeing baroness in tilburg, NL

i once couldn't stop thinking about the definition of health, relatively defined through different cultures, it's significance to differing cultural systems and its relationship with the physical, spiritual and social body. now i can't stop thinking about cultural consumerism, buying identities, local cultures and global sub-cultures. drunk and tired now but will expound on this later.